In Memory of Kathy Clark

Kathy K. Clark passed away on oct.13th 2004

Kathy was the most nurturing of souls. she was always so happy and everyone loved to be around her. she was the mother of three kids and grandmother of two. she hadn't been to a doctor in over ten years because she was so stubborn, until the middle of July 2005 when she presented with stroke like symptoms. We discovered then she had lung cancer that metastised to her brain. the doctors gave her hope but after radiation to her brain there was no change. It was then she was told that she would die and chemo may only prolong her life for an extra 3 to 5 months so she did one treatment then declined the rest. Mom died early Wednesday morning Oct.13th with us beside her.
she was the strongest person i will ever know. she hardly complained and wanted to go through it with no pain medication as long as she could. she fought till the very end, laughing and cracking jokes and never showing any fear.
she would always surprise us with heartfelt gifts and we always felt her love. i miss my mom. she was our rock and a great role model. life will never be the same without her. i know she's looking out for us from up above and i can't wait till we meet again

MOM

How do i even begin
describing the feelings that i buried within
i was the luckiest person in the world
until mom died with me kneeling beside her on the floor

mom was unselfish, compassionate and kind
a person like this i will never again find
she put others needs above her own
her unconditional love was always shown

by her sneaking in soft tissues to residents
or thoughtful surprises she gave as presents
she was our rock, the person we leaned on
6 months later i still can't believe that she's gone

her laughter, her jokes, her sincerity
i can still hear them with such clarity
when i close my eyes i see her face
but sadly i'll never again feel her embrace

shopping was her favorite thing
in the car, listening to country, we would sing
she would look for others before herself
because of her our lives were full of wealth

she took care of her mother for many years
until one day her eyes were again full of tears
she lost her parents, sister and two brothers
a brother was all that was left to stand beside her

one dreadful day in July
mom began her fight to stay alive
the heartbreaking diagnosis was lung cancer
why had God given this to her

she fought so hard, with all her might
it was a battle she was willing to fight
there was some things she wanted to do
we made some of those things come true

she was the strongest person I'll ever know
why oh why God did she have to go
far away from the ones she loved
making us face life with not a push but a shove

life without her will never be the same
i sit here and wonder am i the one to blame
was there something out there to make her better
since she died my life's been in the gutter

she said she'd leave us signs
but sometimes i wonder if it's all in my mind
i see lights flicker off and on
could it be her, my mom that is gone?

if i had one wish it would be
that God would give her back to me
the pain is the worst that i've ever felt
lock me away and strap me down with some belts

i'm going crazy i'm losing my mind
i look at pictures and it's then that i find
the happiness that mom brought to us all
that's when i don't feel so small

i knows she's still with me
even thought it's not her that i see
i can feel her in my heart
and because of that i know we will never part.

written by amber richards..in loving memory of my mom who passed away at the age of 55 on oct.13th 2004